The End and a New Beginning

Sorry I have been neglecting the blog, but after you close on a house the only thing that ensues is craziness. Craziness with organization, scheduling, payments, neighbors, utilities, installation, and most importantly girlfriends! HA! Seriously, it is like I woke up the morning of our closing a normal person and three weeks later I have been put through the spin cycle of the world’s largest washing machine again and again and again and again, but unfortunately with each cycle I feel a little dirtier. I think we are less organized today then when we moved in, but it has been fun and interesting, a growing experience, and a dramatic event, but mostly exciting and new. I guess new is the theme of what will be the last entry of the blog.

I have lived a fairly normal life for the last 34 years, I have seen, done, and experienced a lot of things more than most I think, but still less than what I want. There is a difference now as with times past, I have always thought of myself as self-sufficient and did not need anything or anyone else to accomplish my hopes and dreams. A year ago today I had a first date with a woman who has now changed my life. I no longer want to go through life experiencing things on my own, seeing things by myself, and wondering what it would be like to be able to turn to the woman I love and see her by my side. Today I have that:

Kendal – I will never forget seeing you that first day at the park and feeling deep down inside that something had changed, being a little bit nervous when I shook your hand, and then being ecstatic as I was driving to pick you up for our first date. I love you, you are my best friend, there is nothing in the world that I won’t do for you and there is nothing in the world that I don’t want to share with you. I expect you to want everything from me and I am going to give it to you and more. I promise I will always be there for you. I am going to be whoever you need me to be, provider, supporter, motivator, cuddler, advice giver, advice taker, hand holder, foot rubber, listener, pacifier, but most importantly partner for life. Together we can overcome any obstacle, defeat any problem, and fulfill those hopes and dreams that we lay out for ourselves. We are opposite in so many ways, but we mesh in ways that are stronger than any bond I have ever felt. I have a quote I read almost 8 years ago: “The past cannot remember the past. The future can't generate the future. The cutting edge of this instant right here and now is always nothing less than the totality of everything there is.” Well this moment right now is the culmination of my whole life; I have been waiting for you, for all the good things and bad things that have happened to me, they are now moot because you walked into my life and it is a new beginning. I love you so much, more than I can express in words here today, but hopefully I can show you...